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I Still Love You, Mom

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In a previous chapter of my life
I ranted about how much of a horrible person you were to me
I said quite a few things
That don't at all seem appropriate
For a child like myself to say to their own parent
And for that I solemnly apologize

I realize now that I have been very much critical of your actions
And yet have failed to acknowledge
The reasons why you behave that way
As a mother you feel that it is your primary duty
To ensure my safety and security at all times
Albeit over protectively
Even though I myself am not a woman
I am as sensitive as you are

Day after day you take care of me
In the morning you greet me with a radiant smile
During the afternoon you offer me suggestions for activities
At night you bid me to sleep in a soft loving tone


Back in my younger years                      
You used to take pride over my accomplishments                
And would always worry with any of my failures               
If I ever got in trouble, you would always get infuriated        
And attempt to directly place yourself         
In the complicated situation           
By actually having the guts    
To go over to my school and argue with those responsible       
Even going so far as to talk tough with anyone   
Who didn't seem like they wanted to cooperate    

In the case of my personal mistakes               
You would constantly tell me to never give up                  
And from those words I found perseverance in myself

For some reasons I did not understand
Why you did any of these things for me     
When I always thought to myself        
That I had nothing at all
However, I was a child back then
So I guess it maybe my fault       
For being so immature and forgetful    
About everything you ever did for me      
But what makes me feel happy       
Is that you did these things because you love me       
Something has taken me years to realize                               
Due to my lack of self-awareness

I remember quite well
That you used to tuck me in at night
With a teddy bear by the name of Mr Cuddles
To keep me company as I slowly travelled to Wonderland
I miss them especially more because of the lullaby
That you would always sing to me
What was it called again?
Ah yes, now I remember It was called "Brahm's Lullaby"  
Though I keep forgetting the lyrics        
I have memorized the song by heart
Because your voice is the clearest reminder    
Of the sacrifices you made for me

Remember all the times we used to spend together as a family?     
Me, you, Papa, Zoe and Zed going out to watch a movie  
Eating at a really nice restaurant  
Having occasional family conversations and whatnot   
I know that we still do those things today  
But sometimes I feel like   
That it's become  more of a hobby
Rather than a special family activity

Whenever I had problems with my friends
The kind which I always thought were unsolvable
And you taught me how to reconcile with them
Simply by talking in sweet words

Sometimes I wish I was like Peter Pan
You know, the boy who never grows up?
I admire him because he can do exactly what I can't
Remain a carefree innocent child
Without responsibility to burden him
FOREVER  
But I know that is just a fantasy of mine   
And since this is reality  
I suppose I have no choice
Other than to make the most of my life
And make sacrifices just like you did when you were my age

There are plenty of mothers out there  
Who are just as kind and loving to their own children  
But you're the best maternal figure in the world hands down   
And do you know why I say this?
It's because I said so
Oh ok, fine then  
That isn't the only reason

In fact I can list a million reasons  
As to why you are the greatest of all time
And that still wouldn't fill up the pages of this poem  
It's because you're my mom
Nobody else I know can do a better job than you  
This is a fact of life
And that statement
Is not a measly attempt  
To make myself look favorable in your eyes :)                             








              
Happy Mother's Day everyone!

I really love my mom, that much can be said based upon the title of this deviation alone.

On a side note, I consider this to be the sequel of a more tragic prose I wrote about my frustration with my mother that I titled "I Hate You So Much, Mother" [link] back when I was mad at her.

But the good news is, my mother has already accepted me as being gay and is taking slow steps into getting used to my flamboyant habits. I'm happy that she isn't like other moms who showcase bigotry as part of their life.

This is dedicated to my mom and to all the other people with mothers like mine :)
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